Magnanimous

Our actions reflect our characters. Missing w/o a notice. Promises made but not fulfilled.
Apparently those forced me to say this today, are mainly christians. Christians? I'm glad I was the one who came across with such christians instead of the non-christians.

Forgive your brothers 7 times the no. of times he sinned against you. Here you are forgiving him, there he is repeating the same mistakes. Just gotta learn to be magnanimous.

I'm not just refering to you but to all christians, let your actions be explainable to God. Excuses are meant to lead you into the wrong path. Apologising makes no difference. If your image has been ruined by your own actions, it's time to reflect on wad you should do from now.

To all christians: Reflect upon your own actions when you read this post, that includes myself.

That's Just Me

Satan! Get off my mind! Wad am I thinking? Too sensitive? Just gotta remind myself that I'm doing this for God. Give me some faith and patience.

Been hanging around with nicholas and wei ming. Lan and chilling out at Mac to chit chat haha! Thks to wei ming I was able to get my pedro loafers!!! Wore it for the second time only and I found out that the leather was actually wearing off already!!! LOL! Did I see wrongly? Hope so too lol.

Anyway tmr's lishi camp already, hope everything turns out smoothly.

I have decided, I wont stay for long. There's couple of things I wana do before I enlist.

Lost

One more month to go and I'm still not getting anywhere. Putting on weight again LOL! 10 Pull-ups, more to go :)

It's saturday today but here I am, sitting in front of my com, blogging. Seems like everyone is busy with their own programmes. Give up trying to find someone to go out with lol.

TH had just received his reply from smu regarding his appeal. Felt sad for him but nth can be changed. I'm not putting any great hope on my appeal for NTU as well. I'll follow God's plan for me.

She doesn't seems to be bothered or keen, Has no time, can't possibly Expect anything from her. If I do, and it happens, it'll be just pure Luck as she has got Attitude. Guess this sums up everything lol.

Graduation Ceremony

Life After Ngee Ann

Ytd marks an end to my 3 years in NP. Lots of fond memories indeed. The 20 of us though one left during our first or second year. Hope she's doing fine now. Graduation ceremony was fun but sadly we didnt go out as a class as expected. 3 of them did not turn up. Wonder wad happened. Asked quite a no. of people to come over and take pictures with me, sadly none turned up, tht includes two of my bro.

Anyway I'm glad to be in 3L02 and of cos I'll remember everyone. I'm finally a Diploma holder.

Received the results from all 3 uni already. It wasn't as I had expected it to be but what to do, that's just the cruel part of reality.

I wonder how long should I continue working. Mid or end of june? Regarding the thought of settling down before NS, I guess I should just stop thinking so much LOL!

Just Another Disappointing Day

Work was fine today. Caught a flu this morning again. Too weak!

Being reading the bible daily, trying to find words of encouragement or rather is there anything HE wana tell me after so many things happened.

Received the similar letter today and it was just as wad I had expected. Is that the end?

I have already crossed the line in my own mind, it's so hard to get it off me, just tell me I'm right about this.

The Trio

I'm always well aware of the 3 main pillars. I know that at the end of it, I can only choose to work with of them. It's a tough choice. Just this morning I was cheering my friend up for losing one of the pillar and here I am, receving the bad news straight after I got home. Though this wasn't the partner I wanted to work with in the first place, but it was afterall the strongest pillar.

Gotta admit I was quit confident that the trio would accept me, never did I expect this result. Disappointing indeed. Everyone's telling me "Hey don worry man! You'll definitely make it!". I hope it's true. This is the cruel side of reality.

Two more left. Just gotta wait "patiently" for the right time.

Interesting Monday

As usual, work was great and teck hui's finally returning tml :) Thanks for the candy and drink, appreciate both of you. Was surprised I managed to find the missing P File LOL! Truely God's grace.

Met up with yan li, hui lin, lionel and nich. Well I do understand how you feel, yan li. I believe everyone would have experience such a situation as well. I'm glad you shared it with us today, hope you're feeling better now.

Maybe when others look at my blog, they might laugh at wad I'm blogging about but I guess it's because I feel much better writing everything out so NICH! Stop laughing at me!

Shared my problem with my friends and some said she's just not interested whereas some said, she might be trying hard to catch and a minority asked me to continue trying. Confusing indeed. I'm really praying hard about it.

It's 11.56pm now!!! Gotta sleep :) Good night peeps :)

Memorable Weekends

I was on MC last thurs and fri! Never did I expect that it would be such a great weekend. Started the first day going to polyclinics and went to ernest's house to get DOTA! Thank God that I'm really recovering fast. That was in fact the main highlight of my wonderful weekend LOL! Got a Jap basketball drama - Buzzer Beat from him.

Love makes you strong HAHA!

Just like the main character, my shooting accuracy is indeed commendable as well!! But unlike him, I was always chasing after someone else and not the other way round LOL! Wad a cruel fact lol!

Had a tough time finding someone to go collect my HDD with me at Sim Lim. Some ignored while some couldnt make it but glad two volunteered haha! Thanks Soo Han and Don :)

Been exercising over the past 3 days, basketball and swimming but it seems like I gained weight LOL! Ate too much? Hope to master swimming before I get into NS. I need some motivation for swimming!!!

Just when will my life be like the one filmed in the drama LOL!

Tried playing cello again, still the same as always. Not bad HAHA! How long will it lasts?

29 July is coming!!! If things doesn't get better, maybe I should just give it up :) It might not be the best choice for me.

It's me

Though not the best but I was always among the better ones. That's not because I'm talented but because I was twice as hardworking :)

Everything seems so dramatic. LOL!

Two Days of MC

Went to see a doc early in the morning and for all I know, I'm recovering faster than I expected haha! Measured my height and weight today and yes, healthy as always haha!

4 days of break, gotta think of wad I really want and need now.

Though talking to you is one of my agenda but u always make me feel weird whenever I talk to u lol. Old habit never change. Still as unfriendly to me as always lol. Should I continue to chat with u? Hmm...

I gotta be persistent? Haha!

My Turn Next

I'm glad I'm surviving for the first day of the interview week. With teck hui away, I might even have to cover some of his jobs. Sadly I started this week with a sick body. LOL! Wad a good timing lol. Thank God I have my parents to take care of me :) Sweet <3

Been hearing lots of good news recently and just received one from simon. Glad for you dude. It'll be my turn next haha!

I'm waiting for the right chance at the right time. Enlisting soon. Time's running out.

Beautiful Sunday

Rushed to church only to realize tht the meeting started at 9am instead of 9.30am LOL! Felt so guilty. Srry bout tht peeps. It's the last time I hope.

Chances are slim but when they come, you gotta be quick and grab hold of it. Even though it was just a few minutes but it was good enough haha. Chances like this doesnt come as and when I want it.

Was really shocked when I heard Norman passed his TP haha! Proud of u bro :) Both Josh and I are really disappointing indeed HAHA! I must not compare myself with others again haha. When the time is right, I'll make sure I get my licence.

Working Life

Wake up in the morning, groom myself, have breakfast, report for work, knock off from work, bathe and sleep. That's wad I have been doing since last monday. Routine Life.

I have always thought HR was where my interests are, but it seems like it may not be the case. LOL. Well it's a good experience :)

I was surprised to see wei hern and ting wei working in the same building haha. I wonder if others may feel the same when they see their seniors as I really wonder why I felt so touched. LOL. Well at least I know there's friends working somewhere near me and we might be able to meet each other some days.

Anyway I suppose you cant picture wad a person will say in the midst of being pissed off and frustrated so let's just let it be then. It's better said than never, at least everything is clearly segregated now. Though I still kind of feel it's wasted but HAHA this's the best choice.

Just Who The Hell Are You?

Just when I thought everything had ended, it turned out to be the opposite way. Was that a good sign? Was looking forward to the next meeting but same thing occurred. Having something on at the last minute and turning down the meeting as usual. Sick in the mind you are, just how long are you going to come up with this kind of "joke". Lol. 人不可貌相!!!

You're lucky my vocabulary isn't good HAHA! I can only think of really nasty words to describe "humans" like you. How many kinds of peoples are there in this world. Just my luck to come across with such sicked people always.

My lord see through everything that's on your and my mind. He knows what all of us are thinking and hiding. You people wont travel far, trust me.

Anyway went to swim with long, da and JJ! It was really touching to see the 3 of them so willing to teach me PATIENTLY despite the fact that I still cant make it LOL! The most important thing of all is that I wish to see those who had left their church, return to where they belong - church :)

A Brand New Start

Started my new job as a temporary management supporting officer on 26 April. Haha! Sounds cool isn't it haha. I enjoyed working there, at least for the previous 2 days as compared to working in MOE.

Went for SMU Business Administration interview today. Saw quite a no. of NP students. Anyway there are 2 sections with part A consisting of essay writing and comprehension and part B group discussion. There were only 1 guy from hwa chong and another from an international school in my group, the rest are all poly students. That guy from the international school was only 18!!!! I gotta admit he was the most outstanding candidates of all with his hand raised up almost every 1 min. LOL. Hopefully I'll get selected as well :)

Puzzled Mind

Received a call from SMU to enter an interview next wednesday for business administration. Finally :)

Had a great basketball game with my poly mates and internship colleagues. It was great haha! Kobe bryant live in bp cc LOL! It's been quite some time since I last played with so many people haha.

Was taking a nap and my mum waked me up thinking that I got a letter from the uni. LOL. It was the enlistment letter instead. Sigh. What's next? Really not in the mood to do anything now.

I really cant think of anything to blog. Watching a chrisitian movie now. It's such a sad yet touching story.

God has a plan for everyone :)

Following God's Will

Called Lee Jun up al of a sudden haha. Was browsing through my phonebook, finding people to chill out with me. Glad I got lionel and lee jun with me :) It was a surprise to see elson at cwp haha. That makes 2 4/3 and 2 4/4 students LOL.

Later in the night nich invited me out for a movie - shutter island. It was great. There were a lot of thoughts after watching the movie and sitting here now in front of my com. Just like Leonardo in the movie, sometimes we're just as blind as him. Unconcious. What is it that truly matters to us? Scoring well for exams, winning a competition or is it gaining fame? Are all these earthly treasures? Do not not store up treasures on earth but in heaven. I often put studies before God and that was a very wrong choice. I believe if he wants to put me through this, skipping that few hours for him to attend cell, service or any programmes, he'll definitely pay me back with twice or thrice times the amount I would not have expected. That's my God.

Since primary one all the way until now. PSLE, O Level and Diploma. Everything went off so smoothly that just when I realized it, I enlisting soon and at the same time, waiting for university. This's my story, what's yours?

What I have Been Waiting For This 3 Years

One, two, three,.... When's my turn, God? I've been waiting for it since my very first year of poly. Now that I got the results, you're not telling me that it's the end already? Hmm looking at how many of my friends had already gotten their acceptance letter from the univeristy makes me worried! Come to think of it, majority of them scored much better for their o levels, is that the reason?

Been struggling this 3 years, thinking whether I should retake my O's. It's not as if it's that bad though. At least I managed to get into LMGT, all thanks to my cca points :) Something came across my mind whenever I thought of this. That's wad you had given me, God. I'll be content and accept as it is. I'll follow your will.

It's said to be early may, I shall continue to open my letterbox daily and keep a lookout for that letter. I believe wadeva the outcome is, it'll always be the best for me :)

Congratulations to those who received the uni letter :)

The Nature of Human LOL?

It's weird, I thought when one ignored your msg, you tell him off and he will most probably stop it. It seems not to be the case here. Had an appointment with you for breakfast? Even though I had eaten but since it's a promise I thought I should just accompany you for breakfast. Since I supposed you're still asleep so I left you with a msg, you ignored my msg as usual (I mean sometimes you do), and later in the afternoon msg me saying I should have called you?

Hmm is it really so hard to reply a sms? You're not the only one. I have got friends who are just like you. Those who ignore smses, those who never turn up for appointments or meetings and still don think that they are wrong (I mean though they verbally admit they are wrong but they never change).

Doesnt that sounds wrong to everyone? Hmm am I too petty or is it just normal? LOL! If it's wrong or irresponsible, why then, people still do it despite knowing the facts. What an irony.

Got To Have Faith In Him

As a matter of fact, I'm kinda worried about going NS but at the same time, I looking forward to becoming physically and mentally strong. Guess it's due to the many factors/problems I might come across with which frightened me.

I'm so tired and sleepy now. Feeling so restless all of a sudden lol.

It's been nearly two months since the university applications. Seems like quite a number of my friends gotten the letter from the universities already. Been checking my letterbox regularly but to no avail. It's kind of bothering me as I was aiming for a place in the university all along. That's just show how much faith I have in God. Shouldnt even in the first place be worried about it. He has it all planned out for me. If it's mine, eventually I'll receive the letter.

Life's been rather colorful ever since I quitted that job. Got another HR administrative job again and hope it will turns out well this time round. Most importantly of all, I don wish to have any conflicts with my partner who introduced this job to me. Cant imagine if he decides not to work all of a sudden and MIA haha.

I'm finally free

It was a struggle for me for the past 3 weeks. All I want to do is to fully utilize my time while waiting for enlistment. Never did I realize walking into MOE was a wrong step or rather getting attached to the assist. executive was a wrong choice.

How would you feel if you are scolded for almost every single day? How would you react if whatever you do, does not satisfy your boss and she just keeps on scolding you. I had finally reached my limit, it has to be stopped.

Called my executive to settle everything once and for all. Here's the dialogue:

Teck: Hey Shin, sorry about just now but I gotta leave earlier. Just want to tell you that I want to quit this job.

Shin: Why? (Stern)

Teck: The pressure coming from **** was overwhelming and I cant take it anymore. I'm being scolded everyday for everythings I do irregardless whether it is something right or wrong. Taking one example was that she said she will finish arranging the folder when she comes back on saturday. However when I came to work this morning, she left the folders on my desk. I remembered her telling me about double checking before dispatching the folders and so I did. I spotted the mistakes and again, I was scolded for not identifying it earlier. Didnt you just finished doing it on saturday when no one was around in the office? Being scolded by her has already become a phobia for me. I wanted to work as an HR admin as it was my interest and I'm waiting for enlistment so I thought I should find something I really like. However the outcome was this.

Shin: You'll face this type of problems very often when you enter the workforce and you should have brought up this matter earlier and not when you're about to leave. She did mention you in front of me before but I dont think she dislikes you as the previous TC worked for 3 days and **** asked him to leave. Ok never mind, take it as a learning experience and you take a rest from now and forget about all this unpleasant stuffs, I will inform her tmr.

I was really touched by his words. I was perservering this few weeks and I was afraid by voicing out my problems, things might get awkward so I kept it inside myself. Parents weren't around in singapore and I had no one to talk to. I'm glad I'm finally free :)

Looking Back At The Past

I missed the time I played the cello in an orchestra/enemble. Life w/o music is indeed dull. Didnt have the discipline to practise despite having the time to do it now. Can't get any better just by sitting here and thinking about it. Maybe, it's time.

It's just so hard to change one's character sometimes. I just dislike changes to any plans after it's been confirmed. Life's so unpredictable.

There're things that I wana do and things that I wish I could stop myself from doing. It's just so tough.

I really wana quit this time. MOE is driving me crazy. Is it just because I cannot take the stress or is it true that they had already crossed the line. God help me please. It doesn't seems to be something I wana do.

Home Alone 2

My parents will be back tomorrow! I feel so relieved. Get to experience a lot of things through this week. Washing the clothes, drying and hanging it up, making sure it doesn't rain etc. It's so troublesome but now I know how my parents felt haha.

I dono how to iron my clothes!!! Shit!!!

Appointment was cancelled in the last minute -.- and I didnt go for the recce today either. Just waiting for 7pm so that i can meet you. It's just weird, waiting till 7pm just to go out with your friends and go home together. Doesn't it sounds weird? Hope it'll be interesting then.

The Life of an Adult

Going to work was like a way to kill my time until yesterday when I got scolded and same things happened today. It's really pressurizing and unlike the usual time, I don't even have the time to sms. Lol. It's the peak period so I cant blame anyone. Kept scolding her back in my heart for she always gives last minute instructions and expect me to remember every single things. I tried something new instead. Thank her for identifying my mistakes and to my surprise, she suddenly came to help me out with the folders LOL.

Going to PSC tomorrow morning and got to rush all the way back to MOE. Hope I don get scolded again tmr sigh.

Met Hong yi just now to sell my nba 08 disc to him haha. It's been quite a while and it was great to see him. Haha. More decent looking due to his short hair. Nice haha.
Gotta QT and sleep already. I don think I can wake up tml!!!

Good Friday

I am ashamed of not putting God as my priority for most of the time and I have to confess that I never turn up for service on the eve of Good Friday. I turned up for Good Friday service and left earlier after finishing my prayers. Went to meet the young yet feminine one :) It was the first meeting though great but I felt a sense of uncomfort. It was great thought :)

Had cell on sunday morning before the combined service. AGAIN, the very same person never turn up and had the guts to not even notify us. I reminded myself not to be fast to conclude but stay calm and think of the next step. Finally managed to control my temper and sent him a msg. I thought I might have an answer from him and I believe he must have met up with some problems. I knew, I knew something happened.
However the answer gave was unreasonable.

Whatever we do, we got to stand by our promise and if there's anything that cropped up, it's only right to inform the other party. It's said, a leopard never changes its spot but I kind of believe that this might not be true. Dude, pls prove to me that I'm right. I honestly don't like ______ person. You know it. You better think of a valid reason and let us know. It's not just about attending cell but one's personalities. You'll get fired just like my supervisor last time, who always never turn up and never inform anyone and uncontactable somemore. It's time to grow up and change.

We may be willing to forgive anyone but before the impression is gone, change. Don't just affirm verbally but show us.

Went to meet her again after church and this time, it was totally different. You can tell what's going on now. It was a great day. We went to watch "How to Train a Dragon", and indeed it was the right choice haha. Such lovely, touching and interesting movie. It was a pleasure knowing you. I just enjoy being with you.

Home Alone 1 - The Beginning of Everything

With my parents away in Taiwan, it would means home alone, my bro is always home late and he got work too. Hmm gotta start doing hoouse chores already. Busy busy. Gotta wash clothes, dry and hang them up. Boring!!! But that's what I got to do in the future too.

My little rabbit must be starving!!!! Ate early in the morning and waited until I'm home at 8 plus!! So POOR THING!!!! I'm glad my totoise never comes out haha, this means he don't wanna eat LOL!!!

Anyway, it was a bad day today. I was scolded by my boss for doing this and that wrong. If it's something so important, why don't you do it yourself. Why did you spend your time walking around chatting with the others, chatting on the phone when you can help me with it? What a jerk. Just because you got two assistant, doesn't mean you can throw everything to us. U're a mother for goodness sake. Sigh, I feel bad for your kid.

Stop blaming me when you were the one who was supposed to check and identify my errors. I'm new here aren't I? Wonder how long can I last working in such pathetic place.

Met nich and went JP to collect my Aino bluetooth ear piece. Finally gotten it back!!! Really appreciate your company despite being so tired. Sorry about that haha.

A New Saga

Why should I feel embarassed with what I do? It's not something wrong neither is it something bad. Is it due to a lack of faith or low self esteem? Gotta work this out. GOD!!! Pls shower me with the blessing of faith!!!

Here comes a new challenger.

Attended the good friday service. It was sad though, to see everyone being in their own clique whereas I'm alone. Cliques and couples here and there, where are my cell mates or my 2 brothers sigh. Dono why I always feel so left out.

Anyway had a great time praying. Gotta start afresh from now! Get away!! You evil temptations!!!!!!

Indeed always heard girls being hurt by guys but it always seems to be the opposite way when I think of myself LOL! It's weird. Are there really so many hypocrites in singapore?

The H3 subject question

Have been researching this case study as it is the key to passing this H3 subject -Different Aspect of Human Personalities. I was glad I am finally able to come out with a conclusion. You might find that the two options given are totally different unlike those MCQ questions you did for your H1 subject. There isn't any trick to this case study.

The two options I mentioned earlier on was:

A - caesium + water --> The resultant is the key to this option

B - Red lobster

A

Cello cello. Bringing hope and happiness from the start but turning everything into disappointment in the end. What a "AO MIAO" western instruments it is. You were created to bring music into life but yet you created a havoc. An instrument with such long historical past and with such great pride and honour. Never did I realize that you can cause a person to forsake you at the beginning but decides to pull you to her side again. You helped me see through a person. Bringing a conclusion to this missing puzzle. BUT you made me dislike this person even deeper. Shouldnt you try lessening my hatred with your sweet music?

B

Busy, busy and busy. Such nice words. This word never fails to bring a stop to everything. That's nothing muh to talk about this option. Things were different 3 years ago and everything changed now. Key point is insufficient time, busy, busy and busy.

Readers, you people must be finding it confusing or for those who understand, you must be thinking that it's an irony.

I'm done with my H3 subject!!!!!!!! Finally!!! This marks an end to everything. I'm glad. Wad a fruitful day.

4 Days of Break

Wonder why do I change the font size of the words. Blogger system changed already? I cant seem to find the font size option. Anyway my superior asked me to rest at home tomorrow since the other TC will not be coming as well. I wonder why am I so happy for lol. I'm supposed to be working as taking a day off means no money! Anyway hopefully I get a proper desk soon. Since like I'll be shifting to one of the previous TC's desk.

Was thinking of either swimming or playing badminton tomorrow. Gotta exercise. BUT first of all, I have to get my hair cut!

I'm glad I found this job, at least it keeps my mind occupied.

Doesnt want to do a non profit business doesnt means I'm not willing to sacrifice. The thing is just how worthy it is to spend your time on that. You may think it is so WEI DA to love someone whom doesnt love you at all but I think that's totally bullshit. You just have to get your mind off him/her before you hurt yourself even deeper. How silly you are. LOL!

For all that I know, ever since sunday, everything changed and I'm glad I got something to keep me occupied :)

Work = money

It's my dad's birthday today and we went the Soup Restaurant for dinner! Food were nice but expensive! Just when I take a closer look at him, he sure has aged. Sigh glad at least I was able to give him a treat though 3/4 of the sum were paid by my uncle haha!

Seems like NP guys have yet to receive the NS enlistment letter, at least from those that I know of. Can you imagine just how fast time travels? Sure enjoy the school life while in secondary school and poly. I won't stop at diploma level. I'll definitely get to the local U!!!

Anyway while thinking of blogging when I was working, I thought of the side effect of a joke. Yes of course, life without teasing each other or cracking joke is indeed boring. BUT have anyone of you thought of how some joke can be hurtful at times? I pray that God will give me the wisdom to speak. I hope I did not offend anyone verbally without realizing it.

It's fun to get tease at times like for example, HEY NICH!!! Look who's there man!!! Why you suddenly seem so HAPPY!??? Hahaha! Is it really that happy to see someone whom you like? Doesnt that brings you pain instead?

Honestly, I cant stand being ignored after you asked a question be it by sms, face to face talk or an email or whatsoever. Is busy an excuse? So if someone you like were to sms you, will you reply or will you ignore like what you normally does? Am I right to say that we often judge people according to how much we see or like them and treat them differently? What a sinful act.

Now's not the time yet??? Wonder how many times I have hear this phrase. I have already graduated!!! I got all the time I want now. The thing is, I'm still unable to move this "rock" !!!

I'm sure, very sure that if you were to call me and tell me you need me, even if I'm fast asleep, even if it's in the midnight or early in the morning and no matter how tired and weak I'm and where you are, I'll make sure I run the thousand over miles, swim across the ocean, climb over the mountains, brave across the thunderstorm just to be there for you and to give you one tight slap for waking me up when I'm already dying LOL! But that's just how much you're important to me.

Touching yet funny, as expected from myself :) HA HA!

Always seeking some words of wisdom from your blog dude. Seems like blogging is becoming a way of communicating. Yes indeed the jungle is full of many flowers and fruits. Maybe that was just a rotten one. I'm glad I have yet to put it into my mouth.

Talking about fruits, something else came into my mind - fruits of the spirit. Can you name it all? For all I know patience is what I'm always looking for.

Instead of whining at how miserable life can be sometimes, I thought it was a rather good idea to give thanks for whatever that's happening. Though no proper desk and computer for me, but for all I know, I met a group of friendly and interesting friends. On the other hand, I'm one step closer to identifying what are some of the inedible fruits.

Anyway nichloas, u said u saw lots of emo-tic phrases from "them" right? I thought that was what they wanted. Treat others the way you want them to treat you. That's all I can say.

I heard a "love" story from a close friend once. It seems like her life is indeed so miserable and I really pity her. Afterall I got to know her better, I thought, wasn't that what you always wanted? That's just how you treat others LOL.

I guess we are all insensitive at times, we talk about how our lifes are so pathetic but looking from the big picture, it might be due to the fact that we have already taken a wrong step from the start. That's life, it's too tough to walk back, just got to continue walking straight.

Blogging has become my way of releasing stress recently. Monday to Friday is just about waking up to brush my teeth and bathe, proceed to work, dismiss from work and meet my dear brother nichloas. Honestly, I was always looking forward to meeting you after work, maybe because there's just too many common topic to talk about. Saturday???? Sunday, church service and CAMP MEETING!!!! What a standard way of living lol.

How great it is to let everything out instead of hiding your thoughts.

What should you do when whatever someone does, pisses u off. Inpatience has already become an obstacle for me.

Everything little small things are affecting my mood. SHUCKS!!!!

It's always like this.

Always coming up with new excuses which I gotta say may be valid at times but it's just hard for me to accept.

I'm freaking irritated by your decision. Come on! Prioritize!!! Since you can be so flexible with the others and do the same to the rest of us, i mean me LOL.

Another insensitive freak. Why the hell should I even save my hp batt for you, waiting for the hp to ring, getting distracted by it...... F*** it!!!! Cant believe how pathetic I am. WAKE UP!!!!!

Anyway, for goodness sake, HTH doesn't need to be a guy chatting wif a gal

Seems like the welfare of my side here has got some grudges against us. No personal desk and desktop. Everything gotta be shared despite having extra computers and so many EMPTY SPACES!!!! 2 weeks had just passed and I really wonder how long I can stand this.

On the other side, the agent had continuously failed to send us the link to update our attendace - salary, and 2 weeks had passed. Ridiculous.

Cel postphoned again. Maybe it's time we break up this cell. It's not moving at all.

With cell cancelled, I met nicholas ng jun hao as usual and went orchard. Finally got to see who karen is lol. Nvr seen her before though. Anyway didn't expect von to be there watching movie too but lol...

Went over causeway point for some light supper before going home. Guess we had a HTH talk throughout the whole journey lol. Why are we always the victim? HAHA!

It's the second week at MOE! Cant believe who I saw today at the MOE scholarship interview. What a small world haha. Sadly I attended the interview as a clerk and not an applicant haha!

Though busy but I gotta admit time passes really fast while working there. One thing bad about it is that I got no personal computer!!!

Yup, tomorrow's friday but cant go home!!! Got cell LOL! Must be enthusiatic about it haha! Hope to see majority of them there tmr.

Attended Jie ying's concert on tuesday and I was really surprised by the number of audience. LOL! Not even one quarter of the theatre is occupied. What's happening??? Anyway great things happened after the concert LOL! Didn't expect it.

I guess for the next few working days, I should be meeting nicholas as usual and go home together. OT for half an hour daily haha! Such diligent worker. Finish my job on time and stayed back to do even "more" stuffs haha!

What a great day to start! Refreshing, motivated and happy!Results been improving since the first semester and here I am, finally reached the highest possible GPA. What a good ending :) Thank you lord! :D

Next stop, UNIVERSITY!!!

With my partner leaving early today, got quite some tasks to complete and it was a total mess!!! Indeed working as an administrator/clerk isn't as easy as I thought but it shall become a good testimony and experience for me :)

Tmr shall be an important for all NP students haha! Quite nervous.

It's always good to keep myself occupied with a job, at least it helps kill time :) Sad thing is, I got no motivation to do any other things.

Gotta start thinking wad I really want lol. Everyday's just work, sleep, QT and that's all lol. Anyone feeling bored now should jus think of what they really want and start MOVING!

As usual, I'm still too fast in making a conclusion. Is it because of inpatience or lack of faith?

First day at work. Nice environment but uncomfortable working condition for me. Not personal desk!!! Wonder if one can imagine how painful my back can be. There were 6 other temporary staffs and were around my age. The jobs are really straight forward and as expected, you don't need to think! Everything is fixed, it's just like following a SOP. To my surprise, there was a Njc girl living near me and I was asked to work under or rather with her. Heard something like how they chose me so I'm kind of proud of myself in a way :)

It was great to receive wishes from my peers regarding my first day of work. Honestly I did not expect it.

Anyway it's all back to dark hair again, not used to it but it seems normal when I go for work.

Thinking of the lishi camp make me stressed!!! With jia ni taking up the role of makingthe video, it was a relieve for me as I had never really use the movie maker despite I'm from NP!!!! Dono why but i just felt bad for her???

Always been spending my time with nicholas and jun wei before my work started and i thought it was great to spend time catching up with friends or even just chat with them despite seeing each other almost everyday LOL.

Took a few weeks before I got this offer. Admin at MOE teaching scholarhsip unit!!! Great! Thanks LORD!!! :D

Been spending money this few weeks!!! Gotta start to save up from now.

There's 2 options now isnt it? A & B. I guess A's out!!! Been trying my very best to "research" and the result I got isn't really pleasing. Though it's left with B but it's just so hard to "reasearch" on it.

Nich!!! Cant believe you even state your criteria for your future gf on your blog haha! U think u're holding a matchmaking sessions for yourself ah haha!

Anyway here's some highlights of my life recently haha!

Life after graduating from NP remains a question mark! Thought I'll grab onto u b4 I leave but u're a disappointment LOL. Why are we all so insensitive(Am I?)!

Prom night went off smoothly. Sadly none from our table won any lucky draws LOL. Went to supper club after that. Cool :)

I wonder wad's the point of asking me if i can make it if none are serious bout gg out lol. All say i buay steady and in e end only simon n i were out lol. Where's the organizer? The one who's so on bout this meeting? LOL! Excuses coming next.

Glad we finally found an idea of wad we wanted and hopefully everything goes well tmr.

Disappointing indeed.

Busy preparing for uni application! Left with NTU now :)

I wonder if she's actually aware of it. Kinda obvious uh. LOL not tht I believe but just happened to overlook the horoscope just now. Seems like my tao hua yun is here haha! Anyway, whenever I feel like just letting everything go, here comes the "false" hope again. Wonder if it's true or not lol. Really got nth to say about u this. Weird.

Anyway gotta start finding the right job while keeping myself fit :)

Went to BP for CNY! For the first time since 2006 or something, the ten brothers finally get to gather tgt once more haha.

Finished presentation already! This means free from NP but doesn't seems to be something that I'm really happy about LOL. Gotta find something to occupy my time!!!
It's all about waiting now.

This and that, everything, wait and wait...

Resources and contacts are what I have. Report completed. PPT, still working in process. Been spending my time with reports and projects. Need some entertainment!

Went back to NP with ernest today. Collected my Napfa jacket!!! It was tough but I managed to make it through. Thanks Lord! :) Filled up the forms for testimonial n waiting for Doris to send the sample file which obviously she forgotten bout it.

Cell lunch ytd? Why I nvr go? I thought at least someone knows why but it seems not the case.

Skeptical, Cynical...... lol???

I don think i can run anymore haha!!!! Getting worse! But pull-ups is still a thumbsup for me hahaha! Just when I realized it, I'm graduating soon :(

How I wish to see both of u getting well tgt so that others will not be hurt. Sometimes, it's just too hard to change a fact that had already been there for quite some times.

Thought it could be the last one b4 I graduate but I guess.... It wasn't what I expected.

Shall make it to the uni!!!! Will try my best!!!

Really nid the time to think of wad i wana add in for my final report. Not very much of the least worried since God has already planned everything for me but I just cant stand myself wasting the time thinking and couldnt get anything out from my mind. A 80++ pages of a quality report HAHA! Thesis!

Left with less than 2 weeks to the deadline. Running out of time!!!! Trying to focus but there's too much distractions. Don even have the time to sign up for uni!!!

At last!!! My blog is back to normal except the fact tht all links are gone and no more tagboard!!! Can someone help me put a tagboard in my blog???

It's been a while since I last blogged! Last week of attachment spent in Philips showroom LOL! Tougher than I expected but get to understand more bout their products LOL!

Wonder if I'm able to catch it b4 I graduate from NP. So near yet so far.

May God continues to guide me in my path ahead!

Isnt there any place to shop? haha. It's the start of 2010. Few days more to enjoy myself b4 i reach 20!!!! Kinda hard to accept the fact that I'm reaching 20!!! LOL!

Hopefully there'll be a change in this brand new year haha!

Thought I could just express myself more wif words but seems like I dont have a strong foundation in languages haha. Just when I realized it, I'm turning 20 soon! Sigh!!! So fast! It's coming to an end, time never stops. Now I really feel as if there's a gap between us. The digit "1" and "2" HAHA!!! 13 days more to go! 2009 is coming to an end soon!

So near yet so far. This is wad comes into my mind whenever I see u haha:

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
Cause I'll never be with you.

Such nonsense hahaha but yet seems so real.

Anyway josh and I were busy in church today for some reason haha! The catering were great. nice food :)

What would you do if your enemy turns out to be the good person?

Had a great time with BPMC since the start of alpha camp till today. Had lots of chance to mingle around with most people and it was really fun. Looking at some of them makes me reflect on myself, just how much I should try to change. How long can I keep this fire burning within me?

Took lots of picture recently haha! Waiting for them to upload it!!!! After looking at the photos taken, I guess I gotta start exercising again :( i nid some motivation!!!

It's weird how u start talking to me again recently. I hope I'm not thinkinh too much haha. Anyway it's better this way, able to communicate easily and openly with each other as compared to last time.

Blu-ray home theatre system coming next time!!!! Looking forward to it. Indeed, it was great working for MWL.

Really busy this 2 weeks as Sarah's on leave!!! Well at least it keeps me busy rather than rotting at some corner. Something going on this wed. I'll have to think of a way in order to participate HAHA!

Dyed my hair on sunday. Matrix dye!!! It's e lightest color I ever dyed but it's not contrasting enough!!! Same as my skin color lol. Well it's nt as bad as i think anyway lol.

Gotta start training!!! I'm too conscious bout my body! Good/bad I'm nt sure haha.

Cant believe u're such a guy. Lol. Money come first, breaking your promise, zhong se qing you.

Interim presentation went off smoothly :) Both of us got pretty good remarks :)

Seems like I cant stop yet, just gonna continue walking ahead.

New stars are surfacing :)

Been rushing my interim report n ppt slides this few weeks...
Wonder how I should do it!!!!
It's never ending

I give up waiting for u to upload the pictures
Empty promises, too busy I guess, nvm then
Really touched u at least thought of me when u went to the place

Tried pull up with my bag on and managed to do only 6
My palm cant stand the pain
Gotta train more

New stars are born~

I have just gotten myself into the enhanced batch for BMT haha! It's gonna be tough but since I managed to obtain a silver for NAPFA, I shud be proud of myself haha! Great achievement indeed. Give thanks to the lord :)

Wanted to dye my hair today but heard the medical checkup or photo-taking session will not allow colored hair. SIGH!!! Wonder when's the photo taking session. Hopefully short hair is not required!

Just thought maybe it could be a chance but yet looking at how things are going, forget it haha. Impressions gone!

Had my dinner wif ling hui jsut nw. Come to think of it, t's been years or rather almost 2 years since i last met her. It was great to see each other after so long.

It was the same familiar path ~

Going to TP tmr! Heard it'll be a tough day for us. Well I'll take it as a training for my NAPFA haha! At least I can be out from Menlo! I'm nt afraid of sweat or dirts as long as it doesnt affects my skins! It will be 4 long and tough days for us.

I was shocked when he told me he was caught in an accident. Thank God nth happened to him :) Driving is a risk indeed.

A disappointment again today. Everyone got their own programmes and I'm sick of going home straight after service every sunday!!! Finished my report on every sat just to make myself free to go out on sun!!!! Just felt like I'm drifting away from church! Our clique are falling apart.

Though I don remember promising Nicholas that I'll attend the carnival but I still attended the event. Long's sick, so I can't blame him, the other as usual, PS king. Can't stand it. What does it take to be a man of word, to be a responsible person??? Determination and the ability to plan your programmes ahead. Glad I got to see wei qian, boon & kok chye, stella, Mr Chong, Ms leow and of cos OLIVIA haha. Had a good chat with them and Nich! For goodness sake, u make me feel like i wasted my time going there sia!!!! Felt so leftout!!!! Luckily ms HO was there.

Cant tell if it's true but I'm always aware of your presence in church.

Just when i realized it, we're only left wif one official chance to meet each other again. 3L02's becoming a history for us soon. Really hope that we can attend the graduation night together but seems like not many peeps are keen esp our class!!! Why!! Everytime when i wana pay for the event, there'll surely be something tht crop up n the rep's unable to get the $$ from me. Sigh!!! Really wish to attend the event at least wif a few classmates.

Helped out in the corporate sales again but this time alone and it's at keppel corp office. Got to know 2 Ex NP seniors and one of them is the Philips accounts manager! My GM's from NP too. Seems like NP is indeed a school tht produce talents haha!

Went for a jog wif nich today. It was a great :) To see one another after so long. To see how each other have grown spiritually, physically & mentally haha! Words of wisdom again haha! Really satisfied wif my performance today! I guess 2.4km isnt a prob for me now. I'm left wif standing board jump and sit & reach now!!! Hopefully i can make it for both. Thanks God! I'm getting physically fitter now :) Napfa's just around the corner now. Cant afford to let myself down at this moment!!!

Thank God for everything so far. Stopped driving since a few months ago and I'm realyl gettign the freedom i wan now :)

It's so boring! I've been always looking forward to weekends cos I really feel like going out! But everyone's busy! Zzzz Hopefuly tmr will be a surprise.

Been getting really weird physically. It cant be... Well pretty bored!!!

So dude! Backstabber or hero now? Haha. Glad both of u are back back tgt again. Is it really tht fun? Hopefully there wont be a next time haha.

Auditing tmr!!! Once it's over, I guess I wont have to do so much of a "designing" work haha!

As usual, take the shutter bus back to admiralty and went to train my pull-ups. Indeed my peak's still 8! Only manage to did 7 this few days but wad i can say is, it's 7 solid pull up, I suppose haha. Today was rather special. Walked pass ADP and saw Mr chua & Yue Lao Shi. Had a nice chat wif chua and went back home! It's been awhile since we last met :) Still single lol. It's time for him to find his right gal haha! (Wad bout me? Haha!)

Since things cropped up so suddenly, I didnt even get a chance to choose where I wana go. Everything's unexpected. Don't really know who's the one u dislike so much but if it's me den haha, sorry then. It's hard to tell wad u're thinking since we only chat on specific period.

Anyway I've been taking the chartered bus home and it was good haha. Guess from now I can save alot from transportation and guess I can depend on myself alrdy. Thks for the rides :)

I'm putting on weights ever since I started working!!! How I wish there were muscles masses haha!

Feel sad for u. Sometimes u just gonna put down your pride and take the initiatives. The more u keep things to yourself, the more troublesome it'll be. Everything can be changed in a way so get rid of your stubborn thinking. If nth can be changed, den wad do u believe in all this while? God can make changes in life :) Wake up dude!

OT today again. Shagged! Been coming back on sat for internship. It's like 6 working days instead of 5. Feel so cheated! Anyway thks to Alvin for driving me to work every sat. He made my life so much easier haha.

Finally received the NTUC scholarship letter! Haha! Been waiting all along. Application unsuccessful! :(

Got back my mp4 and am trying to put some video inside! I'm transferring the CJ7 over now!!! Dam long!

Saw Julian and Fiza at JE in the morning today. It was indeed nice to see my old pal outside afterall, we haven been seeing each other as frequent as our normal school days.

Kana tekan for operating the reach stacker today!!! That guy!!! Zzzz spoilt my mood! On one side I really hate this guy but on the other, I do understand his stand/reason. It was the manager who said he would give me chance to ride on it anyway. It's just a matter of time!

Celebrated shimmy's birthday ytd at Jack's Place. For the first time in my life lol, I spent $22 on one dish! Nvr spend so much on food before, XIN TONG!!! Haha! Anyway it was a pleasant day indeed, to be able to see each others on friday again :) Can tell tht I'm putting on weights from the pictures haha.

Went to the NS website to book the medical checkup but the slot that L02 guys booked are alrdy fully booked. Guess i'll just wait til tonight or tmr and hopefully I can find someone to book wif me haha! Ransacked my cupboard for my awards and found my childhood photos! Quite touching indeed haha. Gotta learn to be more filial to my parents haha!

Gotta rush my week 2 report now ~

Freaking pictures in my camera! It's been there for months, wanted to upload it but it's really a couple pic lol. Dam irritating, just cos of tht I cant upload my pictures! Pic of my longer hair!!!

Thought it disappeared from my mind but it **** appearred again today.

Been taking the shutter bus home and guess wad, been passing NTU hostel -.- Some nice place it is I thought, didnt expect to see the big sign NTU -.- Luckily I dozed off the moment the bus started moving haha. Indeed, it's just 10 mins away by car.

So near but no longer needed.

I have no regret, you're e one who let it go, the one who gave up first.

It's alrdy a scar.

Before I went for practice today, went cwp to collect my dear boy comic!!!! Act III finally out! Interesting starting indeed. Cant wait for the 2nd vol to be out!

Carried alot of stuffs today to the loft!!! Perspire like hell! My first time to the loft and I'm really surprised. The place's just like a 4 room flat. Very comfortable!!! Anyway didnt expect to play the cello again. It was a great opportunity to perform for our lecturer's wedding @ the shangri-la resort!!! "Snacks" were nice and to didnt expect to see "sadist", ying hui and vina there haha! What a small world. We were "paid" 30 bucks each for the half an hour. One min one buck! I'm finally a paid musician!!!! It seems like the lecturer was a christian also haha and praise the lord for our prayers work!!! My cello didnt go out of tune during the whole performance! What a relieve! :)


More to come :)

Once a cellist, always a cellist

1 week passed. Gotta start my weekly report tmr! Everything went off smoothly :) All the staffs there are really friendly haha. Food's pretty good too, at least I can adapt to it.

Gotten my results back :) Not wad I hoped for but at least, it's my highest gpa so far and 2 AD in a row haha! Praise the lord!

Where're u...

Calling up vendors for delivery order invoice, creating purchase order, filing, testing whether the changes have been made to the SIMS system are my current roles haha. Cant think of any currently. Wonder if it would be better to work in the warehouse instead but no air-con for me.

No time for driving and practising of cello so far lol.

2 days passed. I think it's not as bad as it seems so far except for the fact that the journey there and back home is really long and tiring. Gotta try to learn as much as I can and perform well haha.

Pretty stressful life. Having attachment and I gotta worry bout which instructor to call, when to book the lessons and how and when to train for my 2.4km. Reach home at around 7pm for the past 2 days and I'm like so tired alrdy. I wana get a silver! My pull-ups alrdy a confirmed silver!

Called the yck instructor but to my surprise, he wasn't willing to let me try learning driving from him w/o paying the registration fee!!!! I wonder how simon did it.

Wad shud I do now ~

First day of attachment. Dam tired, tired of sitting there and doing nth LOL! The sad thing is, it's not the place that's new but the customers that are new and we're like cheated LOL. Simon & Teck heng's building is much better I heard lol. Well gotta stay at this place for 6 mths haha. Hope everything goes on smoothly :)

Called the instructor, sounds polite. Calling him back tmr.

Went to far east plaza straight after church and had our lunch there. It took quite a lot of effort to step out and try out highest salon - josh's stylist. Not quite used to short hair but well their comments were rather positive. Guess u're right, just nid more confidence in myself. Been keeping "long hair" for a year I guess. Well a new style finally :)

Went to Comex again but this time round to accompany isaiah to buy his mp3 haha. Had a chat wif my frenz and yes, her frenz agreed to my request haha. Glad she came back right after I was bout to left. Miss Maybe Right haha.

Intership starts tmr. When should I call the yck instructor...

Attending long's POP on wednesday. An eye opener indeed. Feel so motivated to go army now haha! So gonna get fitter. Can do at least 5 pull-ups now but it seems like I'm putting on weight. Guess I ate too many unhealthy food haha.

Went out to Comex wif "Make dead flower" and it turns out to be an interesting and exciting visit HAHA! Sad that da and norman couldn't join us. Anyway I bought the Creative Zen MX!!! My first MP3/4 ever. Let's hope it'll comes in useful soon :D

Cant afford to spend so much $$$ but there's seriously some more things I ought to buy. Performance's coming, I'll be paid! A paid cellist! Haha! I'll try my best to practise hard haha.

She left w/o a word. It was the last moment and was expecting some words from her but she left just like that.

Went out wif Zong Da and bought a new wax! My first time using Loreal wax. Let's hope it's good. Eh bought 2 jeans and 2 polo also! Gotta prepare for intership.
It's been awhile since we go out together, indeed it was after a misunderstanding again that caused all the problems.

I'm just escaping. What so tough bout it. If others can do it, why not I?

Have to let go, must refrain myself from digging it up again.

GREAT DISAPPOINTMENT!!! I got attached to Menlo Logistics at BOON LAY!!! Lol! Boon Lay man!!! Salary decreased from 500 to 440!!!! Wad can I do!!? Tht's life! My life lol

Time passes really fast. It's time to book TP alrdy. Sigh the thought of the instructor makes me stressed! It's just a challenge that I took up, ought to finish it. I believe God has his reasons.

A fun day indeed. Though tiring but dinner was great and programmes were really interesting and fun. Looking forward to the pictures! Haha! Oh ya, it was a good opportunity for me to talk to some of the ppl I have yet to talk to haha. And of cos, I'm glad that honey came back and long's been in the church for months alrdy! Hopefully he'll find a sense of belonging in the church and get baptized here! Haha! It's great to have ppl from the same sec sch as u and in the same church as u. It feels good. Haha.

Driving tmr! Sigh!

I wana play in an orchestra! I know myself, already getting worse and worse! If it continues, I might as well stop playing haha! My "huang Jin shi tai'!!! Ripieno's already a history :(

Leaving my hse soon, my first programme of the week. After quitting strings, everything seems so quiet now. I'll be graduating soon. I'm so gonna get into one of the 3 uni! Really hope to get it. Challenge myself for the better haha!

Had a chat wif zong da. Though I dono wad's the problem that we had initially, but guess it's back to normal :)

I still dono hw I should go about facing the drving lessons! It's my story afterall! How should the story flows!?

Feel so lost now. What to do? No one can be there. Everyone's busy. I'm too free but don feel like doing anything. Thank god for letting all these happens during my holiday! At least it wouldn't distract me as much. U snatched all the happiness away with u.

Nth to do. My life's boring. Where's those happiness that once keep me alive! Driving n DRIVING!!! Cant I just have a more friendly and civilized instructor, one whom knows what's love and patience!

Sigh it was a wrong step afterall. Cheated.

Shouldn't let things that are unworthy of my concern disturb my emotions. Hate it when someone tries to make it sound so sad or he/she says he feels so sad when you're the one who started the trouble. Stop acting! So many examples of this in life.

I'm living the life of a wanderer now haha! Things happened so sudden, can only try to get some friends out with me. Thanks sweeties :) If only everything did not started. If only everyone is committed to taking up their promises.

No goals, no programmes, everyone's busy. What to do? Long book out earlier!!! Till now then I realized holiday's actually a torment for me!

Dono wad to do do during this 2 weeks of holiday! So bored! Don feel like driving! U knw just hw much I dislike that instructor haha! Look at his face!

Anyway it was sweet of both of u :) thanks! Not a very interesting movie but hai guo de qu. The good thing is, borrowed two books from the library and hope it'll keep me busy for the time being :D

Thought it would be a great idea to perform for RP strings but it seems like there's always communication problem and the fact that they have been delaying the scores for months and expect me to attend practices when I haven even seen the scores. Ridiculous! I'll nvr do something unprepared.

The pull up bar helps! I can do around "er hem"! Great improvement indeed! haha!!!

You might've been hurt, babe
That ain't no lie
You've seen them all come and go,

Every little thing I do
Never seems enough for you
You don't wanna lose it again
But I'm not like them
Baby, when you finally,
Get to love somebody
Guess what,
It's gonna be me..

You've got no choice, babe
I've got to move on, and you know
There ain't no time to waste
You're just too blind, to see
But in the end, ya know it's gonna be me
You can't deny
So just tell me why

There comes a day
When I'll be the one, you'll see..
It's gonna be me

It's finally over!!! It'll my last paper in my life if I cant get into uni. For once, I gotta admit this is the toughest exams so far. It was indeed a good timing to place cell on friday haha. Had cell again after my paper n of cos, I enjoyed it though I don really catch wad was discussed in cell most of the time. Eyes kept blinking, too tired I guess. It feels so good to be in cell, especially when we have gabriel and siu long with us today.

I can crap alot and it feels good to see others laughing at ur lame joke haha! But I guess that's not wad I really wanted. I'm at a loss of words when I see my brother falling into temptation, or when he's stressed, down and I couldn't say a word to calm him down. Just dono wad I can do to solve their problems!!!

I guess I should not hesitate anymore, few more times b4 I make that decision!!! I gotta BE A MAN!!! Right norman??? haha

Always saying "ok ok ok i try" but nvr see any reply from my tag or neither did u blog or set up a personal blog. Sick of it. Like I said, my words doesnt get into ur head haha! What to do??? If u can laugh when u read this post den I can only say, u're quite positive.

Anyway thanks for the encouragement!!! Appreciate it alot. Though it was until the last moment that u started TRYING to change, but still I do appreciate what u did :)

After my exams, I don think I'll see any differences. U'll just be busy with ur own stuffs, in your own world. Well I'll try to be mre understanding!!!

U're free to go,do what u really wan to do. U don have to be concerned wif me after my exams, tht's wad i meant by u're free to go. Anything that happens after my exams, I think I can alrdy visualize it.

I guess u're sick of me telling u the same thing over n over again alrdy right? haha.. well use ur actions to prove that u understand wad i said! Haha. I like the way u msg me just nw when u left me. I hope u can continue doing that. Keep it up :) At least it seems like u're back to the first day we met. The way u msg makes me feel u're concerned. That's the way haha.

Sometimes, try to put urself in my shoes and think how you'll feel if u were me. I guess u'll understand me more by doing so. Try. Tag! So that I know u bothered about what i said! Haha!

Gtg to study, u better rest more. Give urself a few more weeks, u nid some time to adapt to a new environment, don worry! U can do it, trust me :)

It's normal. First few weeks of school, there's bound to be lots of OG gathering but if you know tht's gonna affect u n u insist on going den u're indeed silly. Hmm feel sad for u that u dropped 14 bucks but since u don bother telling me den forget it haha. Suits u den. I had enough of telling u. Hmm look forward to our meeting later :) I know u're stressed wif work so I shall not ask anymore from u since wadeva I say, it's still the same though u claim that u're trying. Since u said it, I'll try to believe u den. Though u nvr really do much but still feel stressed partly cos of me so I will stop asking more from u nw. Like I said, no matter hw much I asked from u, I don seem to feel a change in it so yea, as long as u're nt stressed jiu hao.

I feel much better I guess. Indeed friends and families are still the one beside u when u have a problem. For me only? Thanks peeps. Anyway it's time I learn to change too. It's no point worrying, caring and always taking the initiative to start talking. Maybe it's just me but yea, gotta restrain myself. It's tough but I'll try. I cant afford to be like this for the remaining two papers. The last two papers determine my GPA and not to mention it's my last exam before I graduate, so it's a good chance to pull up my GPA.

It's now or never

What does a recorder do? What are its function? Record play pause fast forward/backward. There's no point in talking to a recorder, it'll just repeat after you if it u play the record button if not, nth happens. No feelings, no life it was afterall just a non living ting lol. Yea I know it's purely common sense.

Anyway, It's not about whether it is a first or second r/s. I thought it was rather clear that I allow some space for you to adapt to it. I tried, to tell you how I feel and u kept telling me u dono wad to do and I told u wad u can do but still same things happened again. Are you really committed? We're just like normal frenzs down the street. It's my final exam and of cos, I wish you could just show more concern just like when we were first tgt. Talk another time? Cant u put urself in my shoes? The more u drag, it will not solve anything but hurt me even deeper. I have told u everything I can and what u CAN/MAY do. To do it or not, it's up to u. It's just like giving you the answer to your exams script.

You said I should know it more than anyone else? For sure I know u're not good wif words but honestly, how many times have u tried? Simply saying u're not good at it and trying it once or twice will nvr change a thing. Step out of it.

U gotta stop coming up wif ur excuses my gal. If u're willing, anything can be solved esp when I have alrdy told you wad u can do, wad i'm thinking, wad i wan. Everytime when we chat, I'm the one speaking while u're the one listening so can I say that everything I gave u were good enough? If u have anything u're unhappy wif me, tell me too. I'll make an effort to change at least.

I do understand that as it's the first few weeks of school, so having OG gathering willl be pretty understandable and of cos u're trying to adapt. I know how u feel as it was the same when i got into poly. Everything's different. But still, why cant u tell me how u feel? I just got to know from your blog that u felt stressed. Cos I'm studying for exams so u're keeping it to urself? Come on, I'm here for u not becos of any1 but U! I can always juggle my time btw studies and u. Pls, we're in a r/s, not just frenz, surely I'll be there for u when u need me but u gotta share ur thoughts wif me. I'm sensitive towards u, so are u?

My first paper later. Sigh! It was the paper which I expected an A but now.... Lord, help me! Nth gonna stands in my way. I place my trust in you :)

Couldnt feel the stress until when Julian called and asked me chap 1 calculations qn n I couldnt ans him. I thought I revised everything but it seems I just know bits and pieces here n there. Cant help but keep feeling very stressed till u msg. Couldnt control my emotion, due to stress I suppose, so I guess u could feel that I wasn't myself just nw but I'm really glad u called. The sound of ur voice calmed me down, too mushy? But it's the truth. LOL.

Haven even started on the theory part n the paper's on friday. Lord help me! I know with u, I'll be able to do it :)

Been making sure that I get at least 8 hrs of sleep daily but I just cant understand, I keep dozing off almost every day and I have been sleeping at least twice per day for the past few days. Started my revision last sat but it seems like I'm still at the start. It's getting nearer day by day. Gotta rush from now.

Glad things have finally gotten better but still, it seems like some thing just cant change.

Everything's back to normal. Finally get to split out everything in my mind.Whether will our r/s change, it's up to u alrdy haha. Well tmr will be better :)

It's the first time we have a HTHT isn't it? :) I hope u can blog soon lol.

DT test went off very well today, seems like everyone are satisfied also. Good thing haha! Went to Suntec with all guys except the same few ppl who did not join us. Though tiring but fun. Our last gathering till next year when we graduate?

Anyway I finally gotten the IVP jacket! Felt a sense of achievement though I bought it instead of representing the school for competition LOL. Manage to drag the time, I was too early for cell, as I saw aileen, guo qiang & joel. Again, cell was beneficial and indeed boost my courage haha!

I guess other than exams nw, I don wana care about any other things. Nth can be more impt than God and for now, exams partly haha.

How wud u feel if I do the same thing to u, as in treat u like hw u treat me? Sounds cool? Haha. Well I'm glad GLM test's finally over. Manage to escape death so many land mines haha. If there's a nid to, I guess I should settle it asap. Cant let it drag or I'll suffer a greater loss haha. DT test on fri. Good luck everyone :)

Lord u're e only one who's there for me when I'm down, when I nid help. Indeed u're my refuge and I surrender myself to u. Too much distractions for me. Three more weeks! Help me, Lord.

Not a word of concern at all, we're just like friends afterall. Sound so funny haha!

Too many thoughts. We're like in our own world esp after ur camp. Maybe I should just act as if there's nth...

There's a good solution though, but after my exams.

It's too plain, tht's all I can say, maybe that's hw it's like when there's something keeping u busy with or maybe tht's how you want it to be so be it, as long as ur heart's still with me.

Asked my mum to teach me how to cook green bean soup ytd. It wasnt as tough as i thought but still, it's the first time n more or less I'm kinda afraid the water may blew up lol!!! Took the soup happily just to meet u and thought it would be good for u since u might not have been drinking lots of water n tht u're nt feeling well. Spend my last 10 dollars note on my ez link as i thought i'll be taking train back wif u but the moment u told me to drink it myself or give my frenz, i knew tht's it. There goes my effort. I cant blame u for being late since u just luv to stick wif the campers n tht they refuse to break camp. So silly isnt it? Why bother to do all this in the first place? Wad wud u feel if one day any1 of u cook/prepare something specially for some1 n he/she asked u to keep it urself or give to another person. U gotta experience it den u'll know. It shall not happen anymore.

Cell outing was still fun even though a few were absent. Thanks to ZHUO SI HUA for pushing me down the water that got my leg cut by the sand. How nice of u HAHA! Well it was fun :) Indeed, being wif bro n sis are always filled wif fun n laughter :)

Healthy day indeed. 3L02 sports day again. All the guys met up except the usual 3 for running, basketball and gyming. Tiring indeed esp the part where we have to rush for our lunch so as to make it in time for presentation. Never felt so stressed about presentation haha. It's been a whole since i last presented and the slides heng n heng presented stressed me haha. Everything went off rather well though. Next week will be the last week and there goes the study break for final exam!!! The last step!

Gotta get stronger for nafa! Too weak!!!

Have nt touch my cello since my last concert. I finally feel like playing n finally have the time for it. Feelings are no longer there. Can feel that i have gotten slightly worse alrdy hmm gotta take out more time to practise! I have lost touch with my cello :(
Felt so proud to be sitting at the first seat for ripieno. Gotta keep on improving. It's too early to stop I guess. After upgrading my one and only cello, I should make full use of it. Practice makes perfect.

Thought when u're away I could at least focus on my project for the time being but still I'm worried bout u especially when u told me of the programmes u have. Clubbing? What kind of camp is that? Since it's compulsory, I cant do anything. The more i think of it, the more i'm worried about u. Maybe it's me that think too much den~ Just hope that u will enjoy ur camp :)

Seems like harry potter movies are getting poorer with each esp haha! Glad at least I watched it wif u :) Gotta spend this period when u're away to chiong my proj. Love my enemies! Cant help but trying to control my temper. Patience!

I'm still waiting for more pictures of the concert!!! Finally one tht shows my face but yet so far!!!

Finally passed my FTT!!! Feel so relieved after passing it. Was so afraid of failing esp when I faced some qn which I'm unsure of haha! Praise the Lord! :D

Cell after church ytd. The first time we have cell after church haha. For once, I don really get wad was being discussed during cell. It's the first time!!! But well glad to have lunch wif everyone :) I just luv these pictures!! :)

I guess joshua just cant stand my charm till he's falling asleep. Sweet dreams I can say, tht's y he's smiling away while "dozing" off haha!

Full cell!!! Feel so much relieved after returning a million to "Once a Golden Hair Lion". Look at the picture, he's smiling HAHA!!!!

I miss u :)

Nth much to blog about recently. I'm still waiting for pictures. Seems like the photography club isnt reliable afterall haha. Hmm we hardly meet up recently. Seriously got lots of project to rush given that we're reaching the end of this sem soon. Well most prob get attached to a company in woodlands, I hope haha. Life's been pretty rush with so many projects and tmr's FTT day!!! Feel like stoppping learning driving IF i fail again haha! There will be a test next week!!! Fpdn last class test. Gotta score!

Not all but some pictures are out!!! Finally!!!! "MY ORCHESTRA" Haha!!!

Not all but some pictures are out!!! Finally!!!! "MY ORCHESTRA" Haha!!!

Hard work paid off! :D Recevied some comments from my friends and they were rather positive with my performance haha. Well it is and will be my first and the last chance playing as a principal player i guess haha. Chances are just hard to come by. Guess I wont be stopping cello-ing unless I'm really busy. Should I play for RP?

Really hope to see more of the pictures of the concert ytd haha!

Hey girl, u gotta be more sensitive at times. Or maybe I'm just too protective ~
Being too serious just makes me feel more troubled. Maybe I should just stop thinking too much bout u den. Do wad u wan. I cant be 24/7 hrs available to tell u wad to do, wad's right and wad's wrong. I guess we're all old enough to decide for ourselves :)

1st July - F.K.
Hmm went over to find ying <3 and did my DT assignment, it's almost done for the initial report but more to go for the final. Rushed back to wlds and found out tht it was raining n no playing of basketball for me!!!

Anyway yea u're right, we're "efficient" haha! "Good students". I guess you must be the one enjoying the most today hmm well u gotta think of something too. Think, observe, analyze and plan!!! That's wad u nid to do!!! Haha! Anyway so touched today haha, lovely fried rice. Thanks :)